This entry was originally published at Ken Noland
Some say it’s the hardest thing they have ever done. Perhaps they are right!
The truth of the matter is that I have smoked for over 8 or 9 years and I am physically addicted to cigarettes. I have tried to quit multiple times in the past and have been met with failure every time. I wasn’t motivated enough, or I just didn’t have the will-power. In fact, I’ve tried to quit so many times now that my friends, at the mere mention of me quitting, take on the old “we’ll be there to support you”, but aren’t too terribly surprised when they see me walking down the street with a smoke a week later.
I’m on day 3 right now. It’s not the longest I’ve gone without smokes, but it is hard, especially considering all the stress I’m under. The part that bugs me the most is not the fact that I am not smoking, but the simple fact that I can not concentrate. I require a certain amount of focus to get my job done, and right now I simply don’t have that focus since my brain keeps telling me that I need nicotene.
I’ve researched quitting smoking many times over. I know how long it takes for my lungs to heal, for my risk of heart disease to decrease in half. I even know how long it takes for my taste-buds to regrow and my sense of smell to return. I know the health benefits of quitting smoking, and I also know the truth behind Camel cigarettes and the chemical additives, besides nicotine, that they add to increase the addictive power of cigarettes. Despite all that, I’ve never managed to quit before… I simply wasn’t ready!
Am I ready now? … No … Not really!
This was a spur of the moment decision. One that I have stuck with for the last few days. I’ve already gone through the first couple of days, so the level of nicotine in my system is at the lowest it has EVER been in the last 8 years and the nicotine receptors in my brain are starting to heal, which means the worst is *almost* over. I say “almost” because today is the turning point. Today will be the final battle over my brain and my pure addiction to cigarettes. So far I haven’t faired well, but I always like to root for the under dog!
-Ken Noland